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I dedicate this writen to myself…
Dear liza,
You r doing good now. Thanks God..I see ur smile everyday. Thanks olso for being kind to me. Taking a good care of me, love me more n be a gud gurl. Keep it up liza!
You noe wut? i like to see ur face when u r smiling n loughing…i like u when u care of ur health n i oslo hepy to see u hepy.
Please don’t let u fall again..b’coz i kenot stand to see u failed again. its really hurt and nobody’s will noe it like i do. Nobody’s noe what is the meaning of ur smile…& nobodys noe what inside ur heart when u r loughing..B’coz sometime u r smile n loughing not becoz u r hepy..but..
U can lie others except urself,liza. Remember that??
to Ija…
Let live for today..Like tommorow will never come.
And let the “past” n the “yesterday” b the cute memories for you..
Always remember that Allah is always there for you. And He will never dissapointed u.
If tommorow comes..hope it will shine better than today. And May Allah help me in whatever I do.
For Deqja..
Wish u all the best in ur future undertaking..Put all ur strength together n be strong.
Last but not least, special dedication song to you, Nurliza Othman..

Artist : Mariah Carey
Song : Hero

There’s a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don’t have to be afraid
Of what you are
There’s an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It’s a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don’t let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You’ll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Yours,
Me, myself & I

Emm..after a long time did’nt rite anything in my blog, here I come again. Today is March 2007 oredy.. many things have changes in my life especially that the NUMBER of age that people keep count every year. Uwaaa..I’m getting older now. Huhu.. Neway, I can claim that I hepy now..really hepy for this 1st quarter year.
Guys, u must probably wonder y I said like that rite.For those who knows what has happen to me..must become very “pelik” or strange to the statment above. First I got a new life now.. I’ll become more independent and strong. Haha..Its doesn’t mean that I’m not stong n independent b4, but the word MORE makes my life better. ( kene la backing diri sendiri gak, kan?). I also reallized that I love myself better. Its actually influence by the book that I’ve read few month ago. If before dis I like to read Love Stories Novels, now..not anymore. I become SICK of the word LOVE. Huhu..No no & no. Now, I switch my prefference to read motivation book. Its work! Really work and influence my life very much. So now, I get a new motto that always play in my mind.. “Sayangi diri lebih dr segalanya..Kerana dirimu begitu berharga.” haha…mcm pernah dengar j the 2nd sentence tu kan? that one I have to pinjam tackline Loreal supaya motto hidup I lebih mengancam.Deangan kata lainnya..Melatop!! ( curik velvet nye ayat)..Thanks Loreal n velvet!! But, of course, Cinta pd Nya yg SATU takkan kurang. InsyaAllah.. Kau peliharalah iman ku ya Allah..dan peliharalah hati ini utk tidak menduakanMu. Amin..
Tak pasal2 si Loreall and Velvet masuk dlm blog aku ni.Ekeke.. Secondly, of course la b’coz now i got many closed fren. They are all marverlous. U ols are my “World” la cayangs. With them..I never feel lonely. They always brighten my day. Asyik nk ketawa j kalau jumpe.Thank you..thank you..May Allah bless all of u. Thank you for simply being there, no matter in the sunny day and in the cloudy day. Rase mcm tak puas say thanks pd kawan2. Dont u feel that?? For all my close frens diana, edy, naim, syapek, zam, nad,zura, medi, maya, mama,linda, bai, salei, fara, k’rul, sepol, atai n bla bla..(pd name yg tak disebut jgn kecik hati key.Banyak sangat..) semoga ikatan berkekalan. May our friendship last forever..No matter what happen, we will be fren, 4eva. Promise k!!!!! I luv u ols…
Thirdly..alhamdulillah cozt now I have been working for one year plus plus. I’m hepy with my job now. Last month was my anniversary. I’ve got increament oredy..Huhu..best best. So now I want to concentrate on my career n my future. I still thinking to futher my study..Just searching for any fren who want to accompany me to study. Bile ade kwn nk blaja sesame baru lah semangat nk blaja kan? Then, I want to save my money for buying a house. Rumah murah2 pon jadi la..as a future investment. Car?? I think not for now.. Just enuf to drive my current car now. Even x cantik, as long as can bring me home to meet my parent n all my siblings, ok la. Hehe.. Lagipon keta tu tak buat problem sangat. Alhamdulillah.
Emm.. for your information, I just get involved with new hobby. That is FUTSAL. Hehe…Its sound really funny when i think about futsal. Actually at first I just follow one of my oficemate kak jijah. She ask me to join her group as they got not enuf player at dat time. But now..it was my weekly game after work. Okeyla..atleast kuar gak peluh. Huhu.. Walaupon sampai skang masih tak pandai nak sepak bola dgn betul. Bile main, lagi banyak gelak dr sepak bola. Wakaka.. well, its me..So, sape2 yg baik hati nk jadi my trainer tu..silalah volunteer. Kalau bleh FOC la. Ekeke..
Ok la..till then. Len kali kite story lagi. Can’t wait to go to PD trip with ex-SMKJ on dis 31st March 07. Sure Kecoooh!!! Ahaks!! I’ll update u ols letter.. Chow!

Bertanya ku pada hati..
Tak layakkah aku untuk kecapi bahagia?
Bartanya ku lagi pada diri..
kenapa sepi tanpa cinta?
Kenapa mesti sedih..
Bertanya2 ku sendiri..
Kenapa hati selalu terluka?
Kenapa kau pergi sang cinta?
Kanapa m’akhiri setelah memulakan?
Kenapa membisu setelah memberi?
Kenapa menyepi..
Tidak sedarkah dikau…
Kelak nanti sang aku itu akan kecewa?
Buat sang aku…tabahlah menghadapinya.
Andai tiada cinta insani buatmu..
Cukuplah sekadar cinta Allah utk mengisi kekosongan hatimu itu.
Dan ingatlah..
Hanya cinta dariNya yang kekal abadi..

Nah, ambil la benda ni.
Apa ni?
Ini adalah hati. Hati aku.
Hati kau? Hmm.. kenapa kau sudi kasi kat aku?
Sebab kau dah jadik sebahagian dari aku.
Kau lebih dari seorang kawan.
Terima kasih… . ianya bererti. Aku terlalu
menghargainya.
( Ye ke?? betul ke kau hargainya?? Buktikan..)

tapi maaf.
Untuk apa?
Sebab, hati tu aku tak beri sepenuhnya.
Cuma sebahagian saja…
Maksud kau?
Aku pernah beri hati aku kat orang lain juga.
Dan aku tak pernah beri kesemuanya. Aku
takut aku tiada hati untuk diri aku sendiri.
Mungkin aku takut, hati itu tidak akan dijaga
dengan sebaik-baiknya. Ianya bukan seperti
barangan lain seperti duit, permata dan
sebagainya. Hati ini penuh mistik, ada
keajaiban yang tersendiri.

Mistik? Kelakar bunyinya…Tapi itu hakikat.Kata org soal hati ni susah nak temp
Ye..Mungkin kelakar. Tapi itu realitinya.
Ia juga berubah mengikut rentak hidup.
Rentak perasaan orang yang aku beri. Jika dia
betul-betul ikhlas, hati ini akan indah dan bersinar.
Tapi, jika dia mempersia-siakannya , hati ini akan
malap. Mungkin akan terus mati untuknya.

Ianya bukan satu benda yang percuma.
Hati ini diberi hanya kepada insan yang terpilih sahaja.
Insan yang istimewa.
Dan kau adalah salah seorang daripada mereka,
kerana naluri aku terlalu percayakan kau.(Maybe I’m wrong..but maybe not.
Itulah yg aku kena pertaruhkan. Kadang2 aku t’fikir yg nilai hati ini terlalu mahal utk dipertaruhkan.
Apepon, Hanya Allah yg tahu..)

Aku insan terpilih?
Ya, kau yang terpilih. Hati ini sering bertukar-tukar
mengikut perasaan orang yang diberikan. Ianya
terlalu sensitif. Tapi ianya cukup kebal dan kental
pada musuh aku. “Musuh”,
mungkin terlalu kejam untuk aku memperkatakan perihal mereka ini.
Ianya tak berubah-berubah seperti yang terjadi
jika hati ini diberi pada orang yang istimewa.

Hati aku hanya tinggal sebahagian sahaja. Ada
orang yang tidak pernah memulangkannya, walaupun
aku hanya pinjamkan sekejap. Ada yang pulangkan dengan
penuh kelukaan. Ada yang sudi berikan sebahagiaan
hatinya pula sebagai ganti. Dan jika kau nak tahu, setiap
hati manusia ada nilai yang tersendiri. Setiapnya
terlalu mistik tapi tetap istimewa!

Cuma satu saja yang kau tak mengerti. Sekali
hati itu terluka, kadangkala sukar nak mengubatinya. Ada
kalanya, mengambil masa yang lama untuk itu.
Dan bila tiba sesuatu yang tidak diingini, mungkin
pemilik hati itu akan menyendiri buat seketika…
sehingga hatinya pulih seperti sediakala.
Hati yang diberi ini bukan untuk suka-suka. Ianya
lahir atas satu kepercayaan. Dari situ, wujudlah
kasih sayang. Jika hilang rasa percaya itu, maka
sukarlah untuk hati itu kembali indah.

Our Birth is our Open Balance
Our Death is our Closing Balance
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities.
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets
Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account
Achievements are our Capital Character & Morals, our Stock-in-trade.
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill
Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents
Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately
The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

It’s hard being best friends with a guy when you are a girl. It is so much harder when you both start caring in a more-than-friends way. The most painful thing that could ever happen is when you realize you’re both can’t live without each other. And the worse thing is when he really gone. Even still dunno what is the meaning of it. But all I know is it hurts and it doesn’t help at all. May be I just want him to be somebody who will catch me when I fall, as I always fall down in my life.. And to be s/body who can share my joy and my sorrow. Can give and take..can lough and cry toghether. Yup, I know its my fate and I’ve to accept it.

Sometimes, I think myself why do we never know what we’ve got till is gone..how do I carry on, my day w/out my best fren. I know, fren is a treasure and someone we turn to and who make the world we live in, a better and happier place. However, I know that all we have in this life is all borrowed from Allah, as He’s owned everythings.
For our friendship, Thanks to Allah to let me have such a wonderful fren like him.

Only Allah knows what best for me. “Redhakanlah hatiku ini ya Allah, dgn segala takdirMu trhadp ku. Amin..”